Atonement Story
Robin Becker
By Robin Becker
I’ve expanded like the swollen door in summer
to fit my own dimension. Your loneliness
is a letter I read and put away, a daily reminder
in the cry of the magpie that I am
still capable of inflicting pain
at this distance.
Like a painting, our talk is dense with description,
half-truths, landscapes, phrases layered
with a patina over time. When she came into my life
I didn’t hesitate.
Or is that only how it seems now, looking back?
Or is that only how you accuse me, looking back?
Long ago, this desert was an inland sea. In the mountains
you can still find shells.
It’s these strange divagations I’ve come to love: midday sun
on pink escarpments; dusk on gray sandstone;
toe-and-finger holes along the three hundred and fifty-seven foot
climb to Acoma Pueblo, where the spirit
of the dead hovers about its earthly home
four days, before the prayer sticks drive it away.
Today all good Jews collect their crimes like old clothes
to be washed and given to the poor.
I remember how my father held his father around the shoulders
as they walked to the old synagogue in Philadelphia.
[“Yom Kippur, Taos, New Mexico” from All-American Girl]
What is one thing I can do to nurture my relationships this year?
Yom Kippur, the Jewish Day of Atonement, begins at sunset tonight, Friday, September 29.
Robin Becker is an American poet, critic, feminist, and professor.